Yesterday as I was falling asleep I realized that I'm in the middle of an anniversary. A year ago I was launching this photography business. A year ago I was taking my pictures and putting them on the internet and praying something would happen.
Yesterday I removed the picture above, the photograph of my two menfolk in their skeleton costumes from the montage at the front of my website. A year ago it was one of the best pictures I had ever taken. The repetition of the costumes, the lowlight sense of motion, the reflection of the trees. Plus it brought up good memories - we always cruise down to the Village in Magnolia where they block off the whole main drag for tiny trick or treeters and run into all our friends and eat chinese on the way home.
A year later, my portfolio has grown and deepened and now I have better pictures. What a wonderful feeling to notice my own growth, to say wow, I know more than I did.
Sometimes it's hard to see growth day to day or it's hard to feel the motion of life, but looking back at where I was a year ago feels so good.
I'm so proud of myself. (eeeeeeeeee - I'm such a nerd! I can't believe I'm writing that on the internet). but it's true y'all. I did something scary and I don't know what will come of it or of me but I'm proud to TRY and work and grown and BE a human. Our culture places a lot of emphasis on success and not a lot of emphasis on TRYING. Success is such a painful stick to measure oneself against. I want to measure myself by how hard I TRIED.
It's a week till Halloween as I write this and the big kid marveled on the way to school today "I can't believe there is a holiday where we get to go out after dark and it's spooky!" and I smiled real big, glad that he was happy and proud that $5 worth of fake spiderwebs on our porch had pleased him so completely and giddy that I would have 3 hours alone before I had to pick him up from school.
I'll take more pictures of the spooky festivities this year and I'll put them up here - but it won't get done till November at LEAST so I thought I would take you on a little tour down memory lane with me and show you how far I've come and how sweet these memories are. Thanks for joining me friends!